Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much"
Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?”
Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy–seven times
"You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbour and hate your enemy.’
But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you."
i really had no idea why i started to type that quote about forgiveness. i've just finished one of Wilde's book and i was casually browsing out of curiousity for the controversial author, i stumbled upon a collection of his famous quotes and somehow this one stood out amongst almost a hundred others. why? dunno. i don't think i hold any grudges against anyone at the moment. that was loooong ago. forgiveness released, over and done with.
then i remembered that night driving home from st kilda with the boys - yes, we out of boredom and insanity went to the beach on a cold winter, well, autumn night, engaging ourselves in an ultra-serious conversation about the future, unimaginable to those who know perfectly well our usually silly selves - when one said to the other "you should learn to forgive YOURSELF".
maybe that is what i should do. stop blaming myself for whatever went wrong. stop holding myself responsible for the mess. stop thinking i'm not good enough. those have worn me out. no wonder i felt so tired lately. dammit allie! learn to surrender, will you? God is able.
forgive. and love.