Thursday, April 30, 2009
habit
we humans are creatures of habit. some habits are good, such as our ritual of washing face, hands and feet everytime sis and i get home. some are bad, and some are just plain disgusting (like picking your nose or scratching you butt in public). nevertheless, habit has unconsciously become a part our everyday life. we tend to sit at the same spot in class, take the same train to work, all just because we're used to it.
for example, the time i roll out of bed each working morning and the time i leave the house just in time to catch the latest train possible that will get me to work early enough to make a cup of coffee are always the same. what's more, i always take the first carriage, for two good reasons: i get to get off the train just right in front of the station gate (hey, least amount of walking), and, i get to refresh my sleepy eyes most mornings with the only good thing about sydenham line, the-young-good-looking-dude-with-a-book-who-always-sit-in-the-corner :D
well, just what i need to get through cold winter mornings. something to look forward to :p
for example, the time i roll out of bed each working morning and the time i leave the house just in time to catch the latest train possible that will get me to work early enough to make a cup of coffee are always the same. what's more, i always take the first carriage, for two good reasons: i get to get off the train just right in front of the station gate (hey, least amount of walking), and, i get to refresh my sleepy eyes most mornings with the only good thing about sydenham line, the-young-good-looking-dude-with-a-book-who-always-sit-in-the-corner :D
well, just what i need to get through cold winter mornings. something to look forward to :p
Sunday, April 26, 2009
passion
sometimes i wonder,
why did God put a collection of nerds as my family here in melbourne?
nerdiness is the most common condition contracted by carltoners, taking the crown from tone-deafness. roughly 90% of carlton 4 is either nerdy, geeky, studious or simply smart. i'm not gonna do a headcount but we do have a range of variety, which includes several masters in accounting, a phd student who lives to experiment on ceramics, a design student who partially inhabits computer labs, library and workshop, a dentist, and more.
everytime we go out - especially when it's just us with no additionals - we talk about how the smell from burnt tire is actually harmful to your lung, what grey water is, and how the tap water in melbourne is fluoridated at 1ppm, over our meals, no matter if it's in a dingy lane restaurant in chinatown or a belgian beer cafe that serves amazing duck confit or just coffees and hot chocolates.
maybe it's the passion in whatever we're doing, which is a good thing. you need passion in life, to do everything wholeheartedly. to enjoy what you do, to love what you do. even in spiritual life, how passionate you are about our Lord determines whether it's going to be a pleasure or a pressure following Him.
xoxo
i am just so proud to be one of them nerds.
why did God put a collection of nerds as my family here in melbourne?
nerdiness is the most common condition contracted by carltoners, taking the crown from tone-deafness. roughly 90% of carlton 4 is either nerdy, geeky, studious or simply smart. i'm not gonna do a headcount but we do have a range of variety, which includes several masters in accounting, a phd student who lives to experiment on ceramics, a design student who partially inhabits computer labs, library and workshop, a dentist, and more.
everytime we go out - especially when it's just us with no additionals - we talk about how the smell from burnt tire is actually harmful to your lung, what grey water is, and how the tap water in melbourne is fluoridated at 1ppm, over our meals, no matter if it's in a dingy lane restaurant in chinatown or a belgian beer cafe that serves amazing duck confit or just coffees and hot chocolates.
maybe it's the passion in whatever we're doing, which is a good thing. you need passion in life, to do everything wholeheartedly. to enjoy what you do, to love what you do. even in spiritual life, how passionate you are about our Lord determines whether it's going to be a pleasure or a pressure following Him.
xoxo
i am just so proud to be one of them nerds.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
blue sky
no i'm not posting about hadi's favourite restaurant.
the weather's been so good this week!!!!
and i'm stuck at work...
sigh~~~~
the weather's been so good this week!!!!
and i'm stuck at work...
sigh~~~~
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
whaddya think?
“Everything is permissible for me” – but not everything is beneficial. “Everything is permissible for me” – but I will not be mastered by anything.
“Everything is permissible” – but not everything is beneficial. “Everything is permissible” – but not everything is constructive.
where do we draw the line?
“Everything is permissible” – but not everything is beneficial. “Everything is permissible” – but not everything is constructive.
where do we draw the line?
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Romans 8:1
1 Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus,
2 because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.
3 For what the law was powerless to do in that it was weakened by the sinful nature, God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful man to be a sin offering. And so he condemned sin in sinful man,
4 in order that the righteous requirements of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the sinful nature but according to the Spirit.
happy Easter~~
2 because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.
3 For what the law was powerless to do in that it was weakened by the sinful nature, God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful man to be a sin offering. And so he condemned sin in sinful man,
4 in order that the righteous requirements of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the sinful nature but according to the Spirit.
happy Easter~~
Saturday, April 11, 2009
only human
"A squirrel in the tree is he watching me
Does he give a damn?
Does he care who I am?
I'm just a man, is that all I am
Are my manners misinterpreted words or only human?
I'm human
Murderous crow, hey what you know
What you reading about, what you hold in your toes
Is that a twig, are you a dove of peace
A black dove undercover, with another puzzle piece
Are you a riddle to solve all along?
Or am I over thinking thoughts of human after all
Only human
Made of flesh, made of sand, made of you and me
The planet's talking about a revolution
The natural laws ain't got no constitution
They've got a right to live their own life
But we keep paving over paradise
'Cause we're only human
Yes we are, only human
If it's our only excuse do you think we'll keep on being only human
Yes we are, yes we are
Only human, only human, only human
So far
Up in the major's tree, the one he planted back when he was just a boy
Thinking 1923
Thirty meters and a foot, take a look, take a climb
What you'll find is the product of a seed
The seed is sown, all alone
It grows above, with a heart of love
Sharp and shelter of the animals of land and cold weather breathing
We're all breathing in
The planet's talking about a revolution
The natural laws ain't got no constitution
They've got a right to live their own life
But we keep paving over paradise
'Cause we're only human
Yes we are, only human
If it's our only excuse do you think we'll keep on being only human
Yes we are, only human, only human, so far, so far
And this place it will outlive me
Before I get to heaven I'll climb that tree
And I will have to give my thanks
For giving me the branch to swing on
If I ever fall in love
I'll have to give myself a baby
I will let my children have their way
'Cause we're only human, yes we are
Only human, so far, so far"
(Jason Mraz)
i was washing dishes when suddenly all emotions rushed into my head and worked my mind up like a clockwork, i couldn't stop thinking, i had to stop the therapeutically mindless act of soaping and rinsing dirty crockeries and dashed to my computer to pour them out.
Christians are often stereotyped as the hypocritical much, and the stereotyping was mentioned repeatedly in the messenger's Good Friday act, it got me thinking. God knows all the angst i kept inside, for i understand how both Peter as well as Grace feel.
sure it's hard being a Christian these days where everything is a matter of one's opinion and one's personal beliefs are to be appreciated and respected as a part of basic human rights. you want to be radical, people thinks you're crazy. at one point, i considered giving the steering wheel a little turn, swerving into the so-called-balanced-life, yet Ci Lyd's encouraging article came at the right moment to nudge me back on track. thanks ci!
however, i, in fact, am not too different with the rest of the world.
as Peter
apparently i do care of what people would think of me when i put one foot out of line, whether it's by mistake or on purpose. there is this expectation to meet, being a Christian and all. and deep inside, there is this fear of people scrutinizing me and trying to find my littlest mistake and it is making me feel pressurized to be a good girl all the time and i know i am supposed to be one but i am not supposed to feel the pressure, am i? it is the Lord who will judge, not people, so why should i care? it is not as if i don't try.
i like the term redeemed sinner, you might have noticed me using it before because it reflects the pardon and salvation i have received from our good Lord but also doesn't leave out the who-i-really-am. it is a perfect defensive statement for all the mistakes i still make. unconsciously, i abused this concept and excused myself often by saying "i am only human afterall".
but, i should have gone and sin no more...
as Grace
remember this? i have to apologise one more time for a similar reason. true that one has a certain capacity to love, especially us who has felt the Father's love, but do you realise that the word capacity means that there is a limit to it? maybe it's just me, but i felt as if i have been a mother hen guilty of neglect of my chicks. i still cannot love like JC does, and, man, i feel bad!
but i shouldn't be like this, should i? i was so angry with myself... then... i remembered this story.
15 When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon son of John, do you truly love [agape] me more than these?”
“Yes, Lord,” he said, “you know that I love [phileo] you.”
Jesus said, “Feed my lambs.”
16 Again Jesus said, “Simon son of John, do you truly love [agape] me?”
He answered, “Yes, Lord, you know that I love [phileo] you.”
Jesus said, “Take care of my sheep.”
17 The third time he said to him, “Simon son of John, do you love [agape] me?”
Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, “Do you love [agape] me?” He said, “Lord, you know all things; you know that I love [phileo] you.”
Jesus said, “Feed my sheep."
(Matthew 21:15-17)
with all my obvious shortcomings, i can only phileo like Peter, but i know God is able. when we embrace grace, instead of self-effort, He will make everything better. He clothed us with His righteousness. when allie can't, God can :)
Does he give a damn?
Does he care who I am?
I'm just a man, is that all I am
Are my manners misinterpreted words or only human?
I'm human
Murderous crow, hey what you know
What you reading about, what you hold in your toes
Is that a twig, are you a dove of peace
A black dove undercover, with another puzzle piece
Are you a riddle to solve all along?
Or am I over thinking thoughts of human after all
Only human
Made of flesh, made of sand, made of you and me
The planet's talking about a revolution
The natural laws ain't got no constitution
They've got a right to live their own life
But we keep paving over paradise
'Cause we're only human
Yes we are, only human
If it's our only excuse do you think we'll keep on being only human
Yes we are, yes we are
Only human, only human, only human
So far
Up in the major's tree, the one he planted back when he was just a boy
Thinking 1923
Thirty meters and a foot, take a look, take a climb
What you'll find is the product of a seed
The seed is sown, all alone
It grows above, with a heart of love
Sharp and shelter of the animals of land and cold weather breathing
We're all breathing in
The planet's talking about a revolution
The natural laws ain't got no constitution
They've got a right to live their own life
But we keep paving over paradise
'Cause we're only human
Yes we are, only human
If it's our only excuse do you think we'll keep on being only human
Yes we are, only human, only human, so far, so far
And this place it will outlive me
Before I get to heaven I'll climb that tree
And I will have to give my thanks
For giving me the branch to swing on
If I ever fall in love
I'll have to give myself a baby
I will let my children have their way
'Cause we're only human, yes we are
Only human, so far, so far"
(Jason Mraz)
i was washing dishes when suddenly all emotions rushed into my head and worked my mind up like a clockwork, i couldn't stop thinking, i had to stop the therapeutically mindless act of soaping and rinsing dirty crockeries and dashed to my computer to pour them out.
Christians are often stereotyped as the hypocritical much, and the stereotyping was mentioned repeatedly in the messenger's Good Friday act, it got me thinking. God knows all the angst i kept inside, for i understand how both Peter as well as Grace feel.
sure it's hard being a Christian these days where everything is a matter of one's opinion and one's personal beliefs are to be appreciated and respected as a part of basic human rights. you want to be radical, people thinks you're crazy. at one point, i considered giving the steering wheel a little turn, swerving into the so-called-balanced-life, yet Ci Lyd's encouraging article came at the right moment to nudge me back on track. thanks ci!
however, i, in fact, am not too different with the rest of the world.
as Peter
apparently i do care of what people would think of me when i put one foot out of line, whether it's by mistake or on purpose. there is this expectation to meet, being a Christian and all. and deep inside, there is this fear of people scrutinizing me and trying to find my littlest mistake and it is making me feel pressurized to be a good girl all the time and i know i am supposed to be one but i am not supposed to feel the pressure, am i? it is the Lord who will judge, not people, so why should i care? it is not as if i don't try.
i like the term redeemed sinner, you might have noticed me using it before because it reflects the pardon and salvation i have received from our good Lord but also doesn't leave out the who-i-really-am. it is a perfect defensive statement for all the mistakes i still make. unconsciously, i abused this concept and excused myself often by saying "i am only human afterall".
but, i should have gone and sin no more...
as Grace
remember this? i have to apologise one more time for a similar reason. true that one has a certain capacity to love, especially us who has felt the Father's love, but do you realise that the word capacity means that there is a limit to it? maybe it's just me, but i felt as if i have been a mother hen guilty of neglect of my chicks. i still cannot love like JC does, and, man, i feel bad!
but i shouldn't be like this, should i? i was so angry with myself... then... i remembered this story.
15 When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon son of John, do you truly love [agape] me more than these?”
“Yes, Lord,” he said, “you know that I love [phileo] you.”
Jesus said, “Feed my lambs.”
16 Again Jesus said, “Simon son of John, do you truly love [agape] me?”
He answered, “Yes, Lord, you know that I love [phileo] you.”
Jesus said, “Take care of my sheep.”
17 The third time he said to him, “Simon son of John, do you love [agape] me?”
Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, “Do you love [agape] me?” He said, “Lord, you know all things; you know that I love [phileo] you.”
Jesus said, “Feed my sheep."
(Matthew 21:15-17)
with all my obvious shortcomings, i can only phileo like Peter, but i know God is able. when we embrace grace, instead of self-effort, He will make everything better. He clothed us with His righteousness. when allie can't, God can :)
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
how can you refuse Him now?
stumbled across this video at church last Sunday and fell in love with the brokenness in the song. how can we refuse Him now?
Sunday, April 5, 2009
things i learned this weekend
1. shit happens. you don't have to ask for it. some shits are exciting in a way it poses challenge in your life. if you feel bored with yours, ask for some shit to happen, then you will start wanting your dull life back again. but hey, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. we need shits to grow.
2. a friend in need is a friend indeed. very true. sincere generosity is rare nowadays. thank you people, you know who you are.
3. there are so many April birthdays in my circle of acquaintances.
4. you cannot make everyone happy. if everyone tries to make everyone happy then noone will be happy. ever heard of the word tolerance and compromise?
5. there are circumstances when i need to be the one to make decisions. otherwise we end up nowhere.
6. there are a lot of stresed/bored/frustrated people lately. the storm is sure hitting us hard.
7. the good news is, God always knows what we need. even with all my complaints, He provides.
2. a friend in need is a friend indeed. very true. sincere generosity is rare nowadays. thank you people, you know who you are.
3. there are so many April birthdays in my circle of acquaintances.
4. you cannot make everyone happy. if everyone tries to make everyone happy then noone will be happy. ever heard of the word tolerance and compromise?
5. there are circumstances when i need to be the one to make decisions. otherwise we end up nowhere.
6. there are a lot of stresed/bored/frustrated people lately. the storm is sure hitting us hard.
7. the good news is, God always knows what we need. even with all my complaints, He provides.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
nomad no more
miaw~
civilization! i have been abstained of internet for almost exactly two days and it already started killing me, until the electricity finally back on again few hours ago. now i am kinda amazed at myself few months back who lived for weeks without the convenience of in-house-broadband-connection and surviving solely on RMIT computer lab.
http://www.news.com.au/heraldsun/story/0,27574,25281230-2862,00.html
in case you ask why...
...anyways, i'm back! mwaahhhhhh~
civilization! i have been abstained of internet for almost exactly two days and it already started killing me, until the electricity finally back on again few hours ago. now i am kinda amazed at myself few months back who lived for weeks without the convenience of in-house-broadband-connection and surviving solely on RMIT computer lab.
http://www.news.com.au/heraldsun/story/0,27574,25281230-2862,00.html
in case you ask why...
...anyways, i'm back! mwaahhhhhh~
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)