i left prayer tower with super puffy eyes again last night. don’t worry; this piece is not a promotional for the prayer tower although i would say that i have been blessed so many times, during those many monday nights in God’s presence, my secret place, my sanctuary.
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i have forgotten how it felt to be loved, for quite a long while now. to be able to feel loved again, to be able to feel worthy to be loved again, it affected me more than i can imagine. and when i tried to think, that if us, who have fallen short of His glory, still capable of loving, although limitedly and conditionally, how much greater is our God’s love? this revelation really overwhelmed me, beyond what i could take and i spend one good hour crying my eyes out, could not sing, could not even pray, just sat there, awed, immersed in God’s grace.
when i started to be able to control the sobbing, someone started to sing this song, brought me back to brokenness again.
Here I am humbled by Your Majesty
Covered by Your grace so free
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb
Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since You laid down Your life
The greatest sacrifice
Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in Your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by Your love
In the presence of Your Majesty
Here I am humbled by the love that You give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand, knowing that I'm Your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire
...i still can’t fully understand why would God came down for us and even died on that filthy cross. we’re not worth it, are we?
i can only come to one conclusion. that is LOVE. that is exactly God’s love for us. He thinks that we are to die for! so why couldn’t we understand this before?
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i’ve found the answer in this story.
36 Now one of the Pharisees invited Jesus to have dinner with him, so he went to the Pharisee's house and reclined at the table. 37 When a woman who had lived a sinful life in that town learned that Jesus was eating at the Pharisee's house, she brought an alabaster jar of perfume, 38 and as she stood behind him at his feet weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them.
39 When the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, "If this man were a prophet, he would know who is touching him and what kind of woman she is—that she is a sinner."
40 Jesus answered him, "Simon, I have something to tell you."
"Tell me, teacher," he said.
41 "Two men owed money to a certain moneylender. One owed him five hundred denarii, and the other fifty. 42 Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he cancelled the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more?"
43 Simon replied, "I suppose the one who had the bigger debt cancelled."
"You have judged correctly," Jesus said.
44 Then he turned toward the woman and said to Simon, "Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give me any water for my feet, but she wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. 45 You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. 46 You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. 47 Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little."
48 Then Jesus said to her, "Your sins are forgiven."
(Luke 7:36-48)
“He who is forgiven little, loves little.” This little statement reveals a mammoth truth for us: We will love God to the degree that we recognize the magnitude of our sins and the immensity of God’s grace to forgive them.
(www.desiringgod.org)
let's learn to really see :)
be blessed, all~
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