#201

last post was number 200! and i completely missed it! boohoohoo.

anyway, i am at work. and not working. already sick of facebooking. kind of wishing that i've had brought my new promise journal from ol' buddy. then again no point regretting not to bring it for a good 15 minutes that otherwise can be spent writing this post, no?

oh, why am i at work and not working?
simple. no patient yet.

this is a really new surgery and there hasn't been much life in it since i started two weeks ago. still trying to be patient, sitting around and waiting for patients. it is the most painful thing to do, not doing anything. so be grateful if you are loaded with work.

we dentists are trained to fix teeth. not doing what we are meant to do kills us. well maybe not all shares this sentiment with me, but as a keen young dentist, i would rather be busy then sitting around doing nothing. for some it is the money, for me, it is about being purposeless.

aren't we like that with God too? aren't we so wonderfully made for a purpose, for His good works? have we done what we are made to do?

i am still struggling to find my calling. i know with my line of profession, i would be more than fortunate enough to help others. nevertheless, this "me" is waiting to take over and get me a comfortable life i could've lead easily.

dear Lord,

i need strength and courage to keep going and for this new job i am starting tomorrow. i need help and guidance so i can do what is pleasing in Your eyes and do my patients right. i need You to tell me that everything is gonna be alright. i need You to tell me, there is no need to be afraid of uncertainties.

and lead me not into temptation.

amen.