i haven't had such a peaceful morning in years. everyone is still asleep. and i am actually not rushing to get ready for anything. this is bliss though not ultimate. true peace will be with You alone o Lord. yet know i am just so happy i have the time to ponder and reflect and think about You. maybe this is why JC prays early in the morning before the sun rises. i'm a bit too late here, sun rose hours ago, but well, early enough for now. can be earlier :)
God, i don't know what you are doing in my life at the moment, but it is so exhilarating! never i've seen such ferventness in praying amongst my cell members. i hope and i pray it is contagious. there is still so much growth i want to witness. so many others i want to see raising Your banner up high.
You have worked in me as well. i felt like i had been thrown back to square one few weeks ago. it feels like, "hey you don't know anything yet, this is how it really feels to be with Me". it sounds crazy considering i have followed You for years, yet there are so many things You are yet to reveal. with each new revelation it brought me to more God given humility, knowing how bad i am and how holy You are. the more i know about You, the more awful i feel about myself, the more i feel i know nothing yet. i believe it will keep continuing until i can say "woe to me, for i am unclean" like the prophet Jeremiah. each realisation that i am so inadequate allows You to work more in me.
please give me the desire to seek You more, to learn more about You. You've started (the simplest explanation for the spending spree on recent trip to koorong :p).
please don't stop.
oh please don't.
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