gifts or giver?

several times already during the past 2 weeks, during prayers, i felt God's feeling conveyed through the spirit in my heart. it was indescribable, it felt outlandish to the point that it was almost unbearable.
the feeling was simple.
the feeling of longing for someone.
the feeling of missing someone so much till u feel like crying.
it was rather sad. i wept like mad.

then it got me thinking... we always say and sing that He's all we want, He's all we ever needed. undeniably JC is all we need, but do we really want Him? as in Him in person, not merely His blessing, protection, providence, promises and all the good things that comes from Him?

so... here i am sitting in my pajamas, staring at my monitor...

...then, mr tant pasted this link on my msn
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PTc_FoELt8s
and this phrase really caught my attention, "elevating gifts above giver"

harsh?

i know this clip is attacking the so called prosperity gospel and only half-relevant to what i am talking about but this is why God is sad. because of our folly.

God wants to have a relationship with us! it's good that we pray to Him everyday, but for what? new cars, new job, new house? blah! that's not the bloody point! [pardon my language] ...we need to learn to start longing for God, just for the sake of wanting Him, as a person, as a Father, as a friend, as the lover of our soul. not just wanting HDs or promotion at work or even good health.

merely wanting HIM.

tough calling, but that is what He put in my heart.
often, even as His workers, we fail. but i'm learning.

everything else can be taken away, but not my God.